dear you,

i envy you. do you know that? because you are living the life that ive always wanted, the one that ive always dreamed of. you are living out the plans that we've made, the family we're supposed to be building.

i wonder if ill ever get over it. will the needle prick that i feel in my heart ever go away every time i see you and what i could've been if it was me there and you were here wondering.

i dont know what's worst, moving on from him or going back to envying your life.